I am so excited for the Christmas break, even though it means balancing my time for fun and assignments. But, what makes me feel more excited is the real essence of Christmas, the day Jesus was born. I have my wishlist, and I hope even just one wish will be fulfilled.


My wishlist:

1. Peace and love in the family. Not really with the four of us, because we have always been peaceful and we love each other. What I mean is, for the extended family members as well.

Wait, is someone playing FarmVille next door? I can hear a goat and a horse. Okay, back to my wishlist...

2. Survive the second semester with good grades.

3. A better relationship with family and friends. Now that I am not always home and I don't see them often, it makes me miss them a lot.

4. Weight loss. I know I am the only person who could make this wish come true. Just support me, people:D

5. See and bond with the people I now rarely see and those who I never saw for the past 4 or 5 years.

6. Good books. I love books!

7. Justice for the victims of the Maguindanao massacre.

8. A guitar stand;)

9. A cure for my muscle ache. Really, it's annoying. Sometimes I have to go from one place to another then I'll have this muscle ache. It hurts, you know.

10. A cure for heartache.

and...

No more lives torn apart, that wars would never start, and time would heal all hearts. And everyone would have a friend, and right would always win, and love would never end. This is my grown-up Christmas list.

I thought it's gonna be easy.

Well, I'm partially right. At least I still manage to do whatever I want but a little less this time. I've got plenty of things to do -- most of them unwanted. I wonder why one G.E. subject is so demanding (considering I have no inclination in one of its parts). I won't mention the name so that if a student from UPLB happens to read this, I'll still be safe. *wink

I have decided to take three subjects under the Arts and Humanities domain and now I think I'm starting to feel the consequences. Hey, it's not that I take studying as a very stressful activity. It's just that I think it's... stressful. LOL.

(I'm not even laughing out loud when I typed LOL. LOL.)

I miss our house. Its warmth, comfort, and the people in it. Cheesy? No. I just hate it because I'm here in Elbi doing my assignments than being at home and chatting with everybody and playing with our pets. I hope you get what I mean.

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20 days before Christmas. I can feel the cold wind already. haha

After not posting for what seemed like eternity, here I am, wanting to be heard. So many things happened in the past months and I must say that I am neither lucky or unlucky.

The sem break was over. I can't get over this statement...

We are now in the third week of classes but my body is still in idle mode. After computing my grades last semester and realizing that I reached the requirement for being in the Dean's list, I now doubt if I could still make it this semester because even if I do not have any major subjects, the ones that I am taking now are my weaknesses. Hey, maybe I could change my point of view. Okay, I'll look at it from the positive perspective. I was once good in writing. Now notice the word "once". I realized that I have lots of rooms for improvement. Students with my course should be good at it - now this makes me feel pressured. When I hear or read my classmates' essays, they were all great, as in great. Oh, and mine? Don't mind it. It's trash.

Maybe I'm a little hard on myself but I really feel... Ugh. How do I feel? Like, stupid? I mean, I just lost my bag at a mall. That's stupid because I wasn't even holding it. I left it alone, just like a deserted little puppy waiting to be found by some other person.

Anyone out there to make me feel like the normal, cheerful, and happy me?

I'm back on track — the track of uncertainty.